Swords, Cookies, and ADHD

So I just took a quiz to see if I have ADHD. Just something random that Matt told me to take. And here is my result!!!


Pretty funny, I guess I can kind of see it. I mean I have a lot of trouble focusing sometimes, mostly with my train of thought. I always thought that I was just lazy and unmotivated, but that actually makes sense! It's a real quiz, too, from a psych care place! I scored 23, which is really high, since 16 and up is considered possibly serious ADHD, I am on the high end of serious! Haha! So according to them I could have a sever condition, but I have lived with it for 19 years and it's no big deal to me, so I think I can continue to cope. And it's not a diagnosis, just a fun quiz! I pretty much don't care! I would never put myself through the trauma of going to the doctors evil lair, just so they can stress me out with tests, and put me on some pills....as if I need another addiction!!!

So last night was super fun! Robb and I hung out with Matt and Lauren, and that was colossal as always!! They came to our house and we ate dinner then went to Montclair Plaza. We wanted to got to Victoria Gardens, but it was waaaay too cold! So we opted for an indoor mall. While there, we went to the Disney Store, and it was so exciting!!! We found THE PERFECT wedding dress for Lauren. It was a Giselle dress, from Enchanted, the wedding dress she has from cartoon world. It looked beautiful on her! And we found a really cute HSM cheer leading costume for Matt. Then we went to the back of the store where this lovely and huge mound of stuffed animals was piled high greeting us and screaming JUMP ON ME!!! I thought about it, but decided against the jump. Matt however couldn't help it, and leaped onto the mound, only to land on a hard surface and find out it was not a mound of animals, they were just one layer of them stacked on a platform, ouch! Haha!
Then we went into Elements of Earth, and that was pretty cool! I love those stores, they're so much fun! The swords are so cool, and I love the fountains, the aroma therapy, the odd figurines, and the random wigs and tassles! So much fun! The girl working there had quite the mouth on her and was hitting on Matt, although I don't know if he noticed, but it was pretty funny! Fun!!
When we first walked past Hollister, we were very abrubtly flashed by the male mannequins that had been, uh, de-pantsed!!! Yep, just standing there, modeling tops-only since the pants had been yanked down to the knees. Pretty awkward, but also hilarious! So our immature selves had a good chuckle at it! Then when we walked past it a second time, there was a teenage guy out front and he was pulling down the rest of the pants, including the female mannequins. So I stopped the group and went over to the kid and said in a mad voice, "Come here!" "What?" He said, and tried to look innocent. I kept telling him and motioning for him to come follow me into the store. "I saw what you did! I'm telling. That's not cool, let's go!". He just kept saying "What?" He was so scared, so finally I told him I was kidding! The relief that flooded over the poor saps face! So funny!! He said he was waiting for me to walk into the store so he could run away! The kid will never undress a statue again, at least not without looking over his shoulder! LOL!
So, that is my excitement! Tomorrow I am helping Lauren make cookies for the rescue mission-our parents Sunday School class is going Saturday night. I am not good in the kitchen, I have been known to cause many accidents and much harm, and my food isn't all that good. But I told her I could measure stuff and stir and clean up, and cheer her on!!! Haha!
That's my contribution!

If

These are some lyrics that I wrote Feb 9, '09. They don't have a tune quite yet, but I am working on it! It's not completely true, but most def inspired by and contrived from a true story!

~IF~

You said that we were best friends, and someday maybe more.
You made my heart come alive like no one had before.
But that was all pretending, you put on such a play!
The things that drew me to you once, now drive me away!

If you had a car, I'd roll it off a cliff!
If you had a house, I'd graffiti my name all over it!
If you sent me flowers, I'd smile as they lit!!!
Even though we're moving on,
I can't let you forget!

I can't believe I fell for that! All your dirty tricks!
I fell under all your spells with a simple finger prick!
But now the magic's over, the truth so hard to miss!
Our love story came crashing down
With Reality's first kiss!

If you'd written me letters, I'd throw them all away!
If you had best friends, that is who I'd date!
If anyone cared, I'd tell them all you're gay!!!
But all I can do is walk away!

Why'd you have to do this? Is it just your way?
You took an awesome friendship,
You had to have it your way! What'd you think I'd say?
Push, and Push,
But in the end you just pushed me far away!
Why me? Why now? Why us?
How could you betray my trust?
But now I'm moving on, moving on,
And I'm not turning around!

If you come back, the answer is NO!
If you ask me to stay, I'm still gonna go!
If you want a second chance, I will leave you alone!
I'm moving on, and I won't turn around!

The Secret of What You Do to Me~

Alright, so yesterday was a super great day at church! We had another split session for Sunday school, and Miriam finished teaching us about Worry from Matthew 6:21-34. It was really good. We do that, especially females. I am really not into profiling or stereo-typing like that, but it's true. As women, we do seem to worry a lot more than men! So the lesson was really helpful!! Always a great challenge! The evening service was moved up to 3 because Pastor and many others were leaving that evening for the Philippines. After the service, we had the LBA cafe and watched a cheesy BJU movie. Well, watched is such a loose term! We talked to whole time! But it was really fun! Then after that, a bunch of us stood around talking for the longest time, even though we'd been kicked out of the building and it was freezing outside! So Matt, Lauren, Sandra, Ricky, Robb and I all went to In & Out, then Barnes and Noble. When we walked in, we walked past those security scanners that are at most places now, but for some reason, I set the alarms crazy! Kind of weird, so just shrugged and walked past. Then we walked into the back section, and through more scanners, and again, alarms go nuts! They asked if we had been shopping at Old Navy or had any Old Navy on. The answer was no. I guess Old Navy has a security thing in their clothing that sets off their alarms, but I had none of that brand on. So again, just shrugged. Then I was about to go look at some books, and had to walk past again. This was the first time I had walked through alone, so I thought maybe it would turn out I was not the cause of the alarms, but no! They go crazy again! Then a while later when we left, they again go insane! We died laughing! I still have no idea why, but Ricky suggested that maybe it was the braces! LOL!!!
After that, we still had time to kill, so we went to Wal-Mart, oh yes. Major hot-spot! So we hung out in there, and found some stellar glasses for Matt (he thought they were too big, though, but I think he liked the pink sparkles), and a really stellar pink pandora for Ricky! They looked so cool! Yea, so that was my day! It was really fun!

So I have decided to post some poetry! I wrote this poem December 3rd of '08. I hadn't let people read it, but have decided it's okay to share. I wrote it at school, it's the only thing I wrote all semester, besides homework, that is! Haha!

~The Secret of What You Do to Me~

Deep, dark, hidden inside.
Secrets kept even from my own eyes.
In my heart of hearts, I held onto this truth.
But it never reached the surface of my conscious mind.

When you keep secrets as long as I, you become a pro, a wiz, a master of disguise!
I turned the lock, and threw away the key,
But over time, it's whereabouts where even hidden to me!

Oh which way did my heart go? Which road did it take?
I was content with my resolve, then you jolted me awake!
What happened to the wall that took so long to build?
What I thought was made up firmly of bricks,
You blew over like a house of sticks.

Not sure how, but with the clocks slow ticking hand,
You've disarmed me as tide to the sand.
Afraid to trust again, I knew I couldn't let you in.
No! I wouldn't be hurt again!
But as the tide insistently, relentlessly crashes on the sand,
And washes away the tired, outer layers,
So you came into my life, nad pushed your way into my inner soul.
You waltzed right in, unbeknownst to me,
Bringing my false, naive security crashing down to it's knees!
(Never to be fully restored)

Do you even know? Would it matter at all?
Or did I scare you away with my untrusting wall?
Look down at what you're holding, in your hands.
Do you see it? It's small, nothing great or grand.
But it's my heart, nad you're holding it,
And to be honest, it hurts!!!
My heart bleeds everytime you leave me to go flirt!
I know I say I don't care, but you see,
I still have to hide.
The secret of what you do to me must stay locked up inside.

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

I am Going to Marry Batman!!!

Soul winning was this morning. It went really good, but was pretty cold outside! But praise the Lord it was not raining this morning! The sun was even out! It's been pouring rain since Thursday, and was supposed to be today as well, but it was not as cold as it has been, and no rain! It was such a blessing, because there is no way we would have been able to be door-knocking in the weather we've had for the past couple of days. And an hour or so after door-knocking, the rain started coming down again, so God was sooooo merciful to give us good weather! I love the rain, but am not super thrilled about the idea of spending a couple hours of the morning walking around while it pours!!! But I must say, that although it didn't have the same rain smell as usual, the air smelled so nice and fresh, and I could smell all the flowers and grass!! Blue skies, smiling at me.....nothing but blue skies, do I see.......


After soulwinning, Robb and I went over to my twins house. We had such a great time! We made some lunch, and had some ice cream, it was so good! Then Matt and I got into a slipper war! But let the record show, Matt started it, as always! :) I was in the kitchen, when a slipper whizzed past my head! It almost took my head off!! LOL!!! So then we were fighting over the slippers and then tossing them at each other. It was fun! He's just lucky he didn't break anything though, he kept throwing the slipper in really bad places, and there were repeated BANG's and CRASHes! But good times! We watched the Dark Knight, and I am the only one of us who has not seen it! I know, you may think I am not a good Batman fan, but it's not my fault! I spent last summer working at a camp in CO where I didn't even have cell reception, let alone access to the summer flicks! Then I went to Bible College, need I say anymore? Haha! So I was not able to see it before now, and I have to say.......STELLAR!!! I loved it! Absolutely superb, in my opinion! After that, we just hung out and goofed around. Robb and Matt wrestled, Matt got to point his gun at us, and show off all his knives and his toy-box, I tormented Lauren with my camera, good times! We had a really great time, and will hopefully be getting together next week, right Twin 1???

Then, I got back home and my parents, I just have to say, are wonderful! There is a plate of Chinese food (my favorite in the whole galaxy), and a cuppa tea sitting there just waiting for me to gulp it all up! And they rented Prince Caspian for us to watch together tonight! And until this afternoon, I have not watched a movie for uh, a really long time! When I watch something, it's always a TV show, not a whole movie! So I think the last movie I watched was in early January! It was so weird to watch a program that lasted for over an hour! And this movie was especially long! But so worth it, of course!!!
So, I think we will leave it at that! I had a super great day, and now get to spend a fun evening with my family! So goodnight all!

Well, I must say that today has been pretty stellar!!!

It is pouring rain outside, and because of that, I was feeling kind of lazy. But I got up this morning, exercised, did my devotions and some other work, played on my computer. I really didn't have much to do for the day, and since I got up super early---in vain---yesterday, I decided to take it slow and easy today and I thoroughly enjoyed myself! I did not accomplish much other than the rest of my planning and preparation for RU Kidz tonight, but sometimes we all just need a day to kick back and take things slowly. And it was very nice! It was only Mom and I here, and so the TV was off, there were no loud men, no trash, no clutter, no empty soda cans on the coffee table. Everything was so peaceful, and everything was so neat and clean, just the way we like it! Very nice!

I came to a decision today. A resolve. I am filled with determination! I feel like I can't get into too many details, but there was a relationship in my life, that had taken a very disappointing turn. As I had written in here already, someone I thought was my friend has hardly been one. Come to think of it, the only worse friends I've had were 3 "friends" that were in my youth group in high school and they made fun of me and lied about me behind my back! And this person has not been that bad, but for someone that is supposed to be my friend, no worst, best friend, there has been so much gunk! And even though I will still be a friend to this person, that's all I can be. I am filled with resolve that if I ever hear from this person again, I will respond as a friend, nothing more! Because this is not the kind of relationship that is healthy, for serious! I don't want to go into details, I am not even sure why I am posting this! But it's 1 in the morning and I have been with kids all night, and maybe I had a soda and candy and ice cream and cake too late into the night, who's to say??? But the point is, that me and this person and are not me and this person anymore! I am filled with resolve and determination, and through much prayer and counsel from my mom and grandma (who's counsel I greatly value), am sure this is the right decision and God has given me peace about it! Even when I told my dad, he agreed that it was the right choice! This person has been treating me badly, and I have finally awakened and become aware of it. Took me long enough, but I got the picture eventually! Ignorance is bliss, and I almost preferred it before I knew who this one really was. This is someone I have spent countless hours with, and really care about, and who said they cared about me as well, and yet, the proof is in the pudding, and lately there hasn't even been any pudding to proof (what? Go to bed, Jane!). And it does hurt a little bit that I am the only loyal one in dumb thing, and that the care I feel for this one is not felt by and for both parties. But that's what happens with self-absorbed people. I have a knack for finding the self-absorbed ones! This person cares for self more than they ever could care for me! So this is good. This is healthy, and necessary, and I am glad to be moving on with my life! Yep! I am, truly! And I am not really upset about it, these are facts, and it's been coming for a while. I am woman, hear me roar! You can't phase me I'm the Ginger.....wait, no, wrong story! Okay, and maybe that is not entirely true. If I think about it, this makes me very sad. To lose a dear friend and realize I bought right into a pack of lies. That does hurt a lot, so I dont' think about it that way. I instead think of the cankur I am ridding myself of! LOL!!! But this is good. Extremely good. And very healthy! Yep!

RU Kidz was tubular tonight! Raphael, Matt and I each wore all black, and we looked really cool! It showed our authority and uniformity and stellarority!!! Yea, it was far-out for sure! I was so nervous for tonight! I was bracing myself for a really rough night, but our night-mare children were not there tonight! God is so Good! I feel really bad saying that, because I want them to come. But when this one child in particular is there, no one gets anything out of the night, because he creates havoc and we can't even play a game because there is pandemonium! But he wasn't there tonight, so the night went by so smoothly! I couldn't believe it. The kids were so well-behaved, the 3 of us were an amazing team of leaders (all in black), and it was a ton of fun! And I am starting some specified rules, written by yours-truly, just for them! Tonight I came up with 3, right on the spot. #1: "Thou shalt not complain when thou art singing." They always complain about the songs I pick, at least one person will complain about each one, I can't please every one, even though I have been trying hard to. So I just made that rule up, and it worked, and I am wondering why I didn't make it sooner! #2: "Thou shalt not complain when thou breathest!". Then we moved on with the program, and one little kid in particular was still complainging a lot, and I realized, Jane, if you can make a rule that says no complaining during songs, can't you make one that eliminates complaining for ever? Which I could, I did, and it was the best rule yet! #3: "Thou shalt be silent when thou are summoned to be so!". And yes, I know summoned means called. But I really like that word, and in trying to speak in Ye Old English Terms, I used that word, Hannah wrote it down as a commandment, and so "summoned" stays! But these rules worked beautifully, and so I am going to finish writing the Sacred Commandments of RU Kidz this week, and put them on a neon poster-board and hang it in class every Friday! It's stellar! Or at least it will be! Oh, and it was so cute! We were playing Fruit Basket Mix Up, and little Joy was in the middle. For those of you who don't know this little sweetie, she is 5, and just the cutest, funniest little thing! So it's her turn, and we tell her to call out a fruit name. So she enthusiastically begins pointing to people and saying "Apple, Banana, Orange, Apple, Banana....." just as she had seen me done a few minutes before. But we say, no Joy, just say ONE! So she nods, and again does the same thing! So I tell her, No Joy! Just say "APPLE" and I yell it out! So she smiles big and is so excited, and says, yelling now, "APPLE, BANANA, ORANGE, APPLE....." and still continues to point to people! Oh, it was the cutest thing I have seen in a long time! I think the only thing that's topped it so far is Ethan, her little brother, counting to ten last week, now that was cute! So finally everyone just decided that since she was calling off all the fruit, it must be a fruit basket upset! So everyone ran around, found a seat, and applauded the now-seated Joy for doing the best job in the middle!! So great!

So that is my exciting night! It was very fun! I have soul-winning in the morning, and then I am hanging out with my twin and our two siblings (that are not related to each other in any way besides the Family of God). So I am pretty stoked for the day which now starts in a few hours, so I really should go to sleep! Goodnight everyone and thanks for reading!

Lions, Pirates, and Bats OH MY!!!!

Well today has been really stellar, and it's only half-way through! Of course, my day started early this morning, much earlier than it had to! The LBA Lions had a basketball tournament in Long Beach all day today, so my family and I were driving down there. We had to be at the church at 7, which meant leaving at the blessed hour of 6:30, which of course would be more blessed if still asleep, rather than up and about! But we piled into the car and went off down the 210! We were driving along, when dad suggests to Robb that he call someone to let Coach know that we may be there a little bit after 7, and not to leave without us! So Robb calls Ryan, who is still asleep at Tommy's house, and he informs Robb that they are not meeting at the church until 9. So Robb calls Coach and as it turns out, the tournament has been cancelled and they only have one game in Long Beach today, which we do not have to leave for until 9 from the church. At this point, we are at Fruit St, which is our exit for La Verne. So we just make a U-turn (after exiting the free-way of course!) and head home. Oh well! So I got some extra time in my Bible, which was a blessing, and then was able to watch a couple minutes of the Office before heading back out into the rain and over in La Verne for Round 2!!! Robb got out and hopped onto the Magic School Bus (did anyone else watch that show growing up???) and Matt Wright came and rode down with us. I had convinced him and Raphael to go so we could have a very important RU Kidz staff meeting.
Last week in RU Kidz was very very rough, so we really needed to get together and sort things out, since we are all new to this! And Matt and I have gotten to know each other a little bit on Facebook, but have not really talked in person much yet, so it was fun to hang out today. And I know this may not come as much of a suprise to some of you since we look a lot alike, but in contemplation of the matter, Matt and I have come to the great realization that we are related! We are not sure how yet, but there is a definite family connection. And he and even Lauren have so sweetly welcomed me into the family! It is so nice to get some family connections in the church, I always knew I was Filipino deep down inside!!! But we had a great time exchanging near-death experiences and funny stories on the way down to Long Beach, and it made the trip very enjoyable! We watched the first half of the game, which honestly was not going too well.

Then at half-time, Raphael, Matt and I went outside to have our first very important grown up business-like top-priority RU Kidz meeting. Last week was so rough. It was the first week we were all in there together, and we had some new kids, and honestly, the night left us feeling beat up. We are lucky to make it through alive! I believe that during the week, some of the children may have been planning a mutany. So, to make sure nothing of the sort happens, the 3 of us devised a plan to conquer the galaxy!!!! Muhahahahahahaha! Okay, so the plan is not completed yet, but we're in Phase 1 of the devising! It is going to be super stellar, but we're not quite there yet. But it's coming along, and one day soon, the 3 of us will truly be an unstoppable force of leaders and rule the world (or at least RU Kidz!) :)!!! The meeting left me very excited!!! We talked outside for a while....all the way through half-time and made it back inside with a minute left of the 4th quarter, and we were forced inside by the rain. It took all that time to accomplish what we did because, and I am serious when I say this, I believe we all have ADD. One of us has been diagnosed with it, and the other two have not, but by the symptons, it's a pretty safe bet. But we are going to be an awesome team of leaders! Unstoppable! Like the 3 pirates, or 3 ninja's, or 3 muskateers, or wait, no....better!!.......Batman, Robin, and Batgirl! Whoo Hoo!!! Yes, there we go! I guess that would make me Batman, lol! So I am very excited because we have great plans in the works, and I think, with God's help, we are going to put together a great program! We are very excited and I think we will work great together! God has a way of bringing people together, and we all work good together, so I am super psyched! This is going to be psychadelic!!!

Oh, yea, and by the time we got back into the gym, the game had a minute left. The game ended 62-48, Long Beach won. But, you have to give our team props! They did a good job against this team. It's not like these are little pansies we're up against. They are Cambodian (which must count for something, right?), and they also have the fact that their coach is Hitler! I mean, these kids don't play any sports besides basketball, and they live and breathe it! As soon as the game was up and their post-game-meeting was over, they were running laps and practicing! Now that's intense!!! No wonder they're so good! Man alive! But our boys did good, and had a good attitude! I am proud of them!!!!

Well, I think that is about it. I have a few things to do before church tonight. I am helping in Kings Kids tonight and am excited about that. I really love working with kids and teens, so I am really thankful for every opportunity I get to help out in these areas!!!

Relationships for Dummies

Oh wait, I looked it up on Google (my fave toy!), and look what I found (this only makes sense if you read my last blog)!!!